A Rant

When I'm tired I rant, and I'm feeling chronically exhausted these days.

So, some thoughts:

The church tends to favor:

Males
Married
Musicians

I'm not male, I'm not married, and I don't like to market myself as a musician.  I've always felt like an outsider to church leadership, even though I've always known that my spiritual life is much stronger than many in church leadership.  This is why I have no interest in going into "ministry." My work is always more valued and appreciated in the secular setting--hence the pull towards chaplaincy.

Yale Divinity School tends to enable:

Episcopalians
Extroverts
Egoists

I'm not Episcopalian, I'm not an extrovert, and I'm continually asking God to work on my ego.  I thrived at Yale Divinity School last year because I refused to be a part of the system, and my refusal to get sucked in gave me the freedom to blossom and be myself.  This year, I am an unwilling part of the system because of my role as Community Life Co-Coordinator, and my task is to be a humble yet bold agent of change in the culture of this school.

A friend asked me last week what I was looking forward to this year.  I said, "Graduating!"

As much as I've loved the opportunity to study at Yale Divinity School, I also feel that my first year was too wonderful to be repeated, and I'd like to move on.  Year Two has been tiring already, and most days I'm too exhausted to even put my rants into writing.  So whenever you see that I've blogged, you'll know that I actually got enough sleep for once and have enough time to sit down and actually write!  Thank goodness for that on this Sunday =)